my place, my space

Where is my place, in which space am I happiest. For years I dreamt of a house, my own, one I would cherish and adore. I saved, stressed and sought until I found this one. The one in which I am sitting in right now, two bedrooms and a cosy kitchen as well as a lounge. Here I have found words that made me feel whole, words that healed others, words that put me on a higher stage. Yet, I often ask myself if this is the space, the place in which I am happiest? I have argued with myself, tortured my soul because something deep inside tells me that I have not yet owned this space, this place. What is it, is it fear, fear to lose that which I have fought for for so long? Then I run back a thousand miles into the past and I see our old, dilapidated rented house and my longing to run into the future, into the house where I am sitting now. I need to find peace, reassure myself that I have found my space, my place even if I am not yet at my happiest.

Peace and love to you my friends.... there where you sit in your place, your space.